Baby Kinsey moved into her mommy's arms without a thought for the crucial organ that had allowed her to develop. I'll write more on the pleasures of lovely Kinsey and her young family another day.
But in morning devotions, God impressed on me the need likewise to let go of any womb that nurtures new existence, depending on God's timing and hard labor to bring about a new thing.
We become so attached to the warmth, the dark safety, and closed-in walls that feed and shape us. New ideas, new projects, and new character are forged in the protection and comfort of a hidden, quiet season. When incubation is done, we are thrust into the glare of a cold room filled with watchers or cheerleaders. Our lungs suck in the first painful breaths of dry air and we may wail in terror as we clear our airways and announce our arrival. What was precious and safe becomes toxic and unclean, whether it is a relationship, church tradition, or business agreement.
This morning, I talked with a woman whose husband left her a year ago. She sobbed throughout the conversation, "It's like he left me five minutes ago. I don't want to change. I still love him. He was my best friend, my soul mate." Though she's asking God for help, her hands are still clenched in fear and sorrow against the reality that she cannot control another person. She is being poisoned by the past, not yet willing to receive the beauty and new life God knows plans for her future.
As I drove away from our meeting, I asked myself, "What am I holding, desperately clutching, afraid that future will not live up to the past?"
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*I will sing of the mercies of the LORD forever; with my mouth will I make known Your faithfulness to all generations. For I have said, “Mercy shall be built up forever; Your faithfulness You shall establish in the very heavens.”Psalm 89:1-2 NKJV
*A Gentile woman who lived there came to him, pleading, 'Have mercy on me, O Lord, Son of David! For my daughter is possessed by a demon that torments her severely.'
But Jesus gave her no reply, not even a word. Then his disciples urged him to send her away. 'Tell her to go away,' they said. 'She is bothering us with all her begging.'
Then Jesus said to the woman, 'I was sent only to help God's lost sheep—the people of Israel.'
But she came and worshiped him, pleading again, 'Lord, help me!'
Jesus responded, 'It isn't right to take food from the children and throw it to the dogs.'
She replied, 'That's true, Lord, but even dogs are allowed to eat the scraps that fall beneath their masters' table.'
'Dear woman,' Jesus said to her, 'your faith is great. Your request is granted.' And her daughter was instantly healed. Matthew 15:22–28 NLT
But Jesus gave her no reply, not even a word. Then his disciples urged him to send her away. 'Tell her to go away,' they said. 'She is bothering us with all her begging.'
Then Jesus said to the woman, 'I was sent only to help God's lost sheep—the people of Israel.'
But she came and worshiped him, pleading again, 'Lord, help me!'
Jesus responded, 'It isn't right to take food from the children and throw it to the dogs.'
She replied, 'That's true, Lord, but even dogs are allowed to eat the scraps that fall beneath their masters' table.'
'Dear woman,' Jesus said to her, 'your faith is great. Your request is granted.' And her daughter was instantly healed. Matthew 15:22–28 NLT
*Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. Philippians 4:8 NKJV
Congratulations on the safe arrival! And thanks for the metaphor!
ReplyDeleteThank you for these inspired thoughts. They brought me to tears. Bless you.
ReplyDeleteR...you're so great at expressing the sometimes 'UN-expressible' ... thank you & much love xoxo
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your newest role in life - Oma!!
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julie